thoughts

boredom.

boredom.

boredom.

boredom.

boredom.

boredom.

boredom.

boredom.

that is a little bit of how i feel.

very much so, actually.

eidsvoll, norway i infact, in my eyes, the most boring place on earth.

its almost IMPOSSIBLE to do things with my friends because buses almost neverrrrrr are driving. the public transport SUCKS! its really frustrating. because after school I usually just come home and spend many hours on my computer, reading, watching tv, or writing. Its not very fulfilling to me.

I want to get out. I want to do things. I need to be with my friends. I feel like I have this requirement to be with my host family, but my friends need me also, and I need my friends just as much. Theyre my support system while I am here, and will be for the rest of my life.

If I had my way, Id go visit my friends every day. We'd do exciting things, like to go Oslo. We'd probably go there every day if we could. Its like the only interesting place in Norway to us. We come from different place, my friends and I. We are not satisfied with just sitting around with our families for 8 hours after school every day. We want to go out and experience things.

I want to get rid of alot of the rules here. I think I am responsible enough, and I know myself well enough to know what is okay and not okay for me. I think thats the age where rules need to stop. And I should be able to make my own decisions. I should be able to sleep over at whatever friends' houses i want. I should be able to go into the city when it is dark. I should be able to be out with my friends late on school nights, and sleep there if I have to. I want to be freer. I feel trapped.

I want to be with tristan right now. I want to be with him tomorrow. I want to be with him the day after... but Im not allowed to all the time. What parents, what people think they should have the authority to keep us apart. We are in love. Nobody can stop that. or will stop that. its not possible. We are old enough to take care of ourselves. We are old enough to take care of each other. We will make our own mistakes and learn from them. But thats life. Its no fun without messing up. I want to make a mess out of things with him, and then clean it up together. and learn from it. We can make it through anything.

Im looking forward to going back to the US again. Where I can drive. And there are actually things to do every day of the week. Thank god. Im going to bore myself to death here. The days go by slower and slower. All I want to do right now is get out. And do something with my life. I feel like the people around me and myself have somehow put it on pause. I never want that to happen. I want to live everyday.

Vikings in Oslo

Phone booth at the Train station