Påske and whatnot

Påske. hmmm. Easter holidays were spent very differently here in the land of norway.
We spent a week up near Sulitjelma, near sweden. We were out skiing almost every day. Initially, I liked skiing. a lot. but near the end of the week, skiing was the last thing I had on my list of things I want to do. But nevertheless, we were out skiing, and on our last day, we went skiing down the mountain, and I remember that I said all of the time *I hate skiing*, It actually was more like yelling.
Just like every family trip that has ever been, I am now a little sick of my family and I just want to get out with my friends. But thats a little difficult, because I feel like Im obligated to be home at a certain time, etc. But the thing is, in the US with my real family, I would have to problem pissing them off and staying out way late with my friends, but here I feel like I have to be a part of the family. And dont get me wrong, I love my family, but Im at the age now where I should be able to leave and make a life of my own. Which I desperately want to do, but it feels impossible under these circumstances.
I know my parents would never aprove, but what I really want to do is just stay over at my friends houses on 'school nights'. were big enough and responsible enough to be able to get up in the mornings and go to school. I should be able to stay overnight at tristans house. Itd make things a lot easier for the whole world, no shit. but by people who think they have a high authority over me, for people who think they know my limits better than I do, they make these stupid rules. I know what it is I need in my life. and Ill make sure Ill get it, and ill do it on my own terms, not on anyone elses.

thoughts

boredom.

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boredom.

that is a little bit of how i feel.

very much so, actually.

eidsvoll, norway i infact, in my eyes, the most boring place on earth.

its almost IMPOSSIBLE to do things with my friends because buses almost neverrrrrr are driving. the public transport SUCKS! its really frustrating. because after school I usually just come home and spend many hours on my computer, reading, watching tv, or writing. Its not very fulfilling to me.

I want to get out. I want to do things. I need to be with my friends. I feel like I have this requirement to be with my host family, but my friends need me also, and I need my friends just as much. Theyre my support system while I am here, and will be for the rest of my life.

If I had my way, Id go visit my friends every day. We'd do exciting things, like to go Oslo. We'd probably go there every day if we could. Its like the only interesting place in Norway to us. We come from different place, my friends and I. We are not satisfied with just sitting around with our families for 8 hours after school every day. We want to go out and experience things.

I want to get rid of alot of the rules here. I think I am responsible enough, and I know myself well enough to know what is okay and not okay for me. I think thats the age where rules need to stop. And I should be able to make my own decisions. I should be able to sleep over at whatever friends' houses i want. I should be able to go into the city when it is dark. I should be able to be out with my friends late on school nights, and sleep there if I have to. I want to be freer. I feel trapped.

I want to be with tristan right now. I want to be with him tomorrow. I want to be with him the day after... but Im not allowed to all the time. What parents, what people think they should have the authority to keep us apart. We are in love. Nobody can stop that. or will stop that. its not possible. We are old enough to take care of ourselves. We are old enough to take care of each other. We will make our own mistakes and learn from them. But thats life. Its no fun without messing up. I want to make a mess out of things with him, and then clean it up together. and learn from it. We can make it through anything.

Im looking forward to going back to the US again. Where I can drive. And there are actually things to do every day of the week. Thank god. Im going to bore myself to death here. The days go by slower and slower. All I want to do right now is get out. And do something with my life. I feel like the people around me and myself have somehow put it on pause. I never want that to happen. I want to live everyday.

Vikings in Oslo

Phone booth at the Train station

Livet er greit

well. an update im sure is needed. a lot has been going on lately. including a now 6 day migraine. not so much fun, but at least its not as bad as it has been...

last thursday i got in a fight with tristan. it was, ofcourse, not the least bit fun. and that lead me into having this migraine, which has now been disrupting my life for 6 days. Maren came on friday to spend the weekend, but poor her, i was definately not up to it. I spent the whole weekend wallowing in patheticness complaining about tristan and my head.

On Friday night we went to Jessheim to shop and go out to eat. That was pretty fun, i ended up buying some bright green crocs.

On Saturday we went to Oslo to visit some friends. We ended up hanging out mostly on karl johanns gate, the main shopping street in norway. (like state street times a million). That was also a little bit fun, but the whole time this fight with tristan was a plague to me. I just couldnt get him outta my mind, and therefore the migraine just got worse. At one point i just laid down in the train station and tried to sleep cause I couldnt do anything else. Then the nausea started. But thank god i have such good friends. They just sat with me and walked with me, instead of going out and having fun. But thats, I guess, what friends are for.

Anyways, on Monday I finally talked with tristan. And were okay now. =). He is going to be more honest with me, even on times when he knows itll hurt my feelings. and Im going to think before I act. (something thats been needing work for a verrrry long time).

Today Im going to hang out with my love. Im not exactly sure what well do yet, but I now have a card where I can go wherever I want to in Akershus and Oslo. So thats really good. Its very helpful because I have more freedom now to take trains when I want, cause it doesnt cost so much. YAY!

Vi skulle dra for å ake på lørdag, i Olso. Men..... vi har ikke noe snø. =(. wæææææææ. Så kanskje vi skal gjøre noe ant i Olso ellers må vi bare kjede oss hjemme hele dagen. Trine hjelper meg med norsken min akkurat nå. Jeg må fortsette å øve på norsken min. Det er alltid mer å lære om språket. Nå er det nesten pausen. Da må jeg gå. tata. =)

wææææææ

yo whadddup

this is mara
and maren

were bored at school. and were going to jessheim today and oslo tomorrow. wheeeee.

Winterbreak! Vinterferie

This past week has been winter break for my school.
The first few days I as home here in Eidsvoll and I hung out with friends and such. On wednesday I went up in the mountains with my mom and sisters and some extended family for a hytta tur. We went cross country skiing and down hill skiing. both of which i am now in love with. ill update more later cause my computers being a little dumb.

updates and such needed things

So Becka told me to update, and i guess i should listen to her sometimes, even if im in a whole other part of the world than her. well ive been super busy here lately. i was out every day last week i think and also on friday and saturday as well. then today i was at tristans the whole day. i got to play with siri linn a little! WHEEE! maybe one day shell be my sister in law. which is wierd to think, cause i think of her as my niece or something. anyways, well, whatd i do last week.. On onsdag i was at swimming with friends and then afterwards we went to marius' and watched jackass and stuff. on thursday i have absolutely no idea what i did. on friday i went to visit my friends in the elementary school, and i ended up playing with then for 30 min. haha. i cant wait til im a teacher!then afterschool i went to my local contact family. Liv (mom) and Jenny (sister). that was pretty fun. we watched a norwegian movie called elling. on lørdag was ukm. its like a talent show. both jenny and karo prefromed and went on to the next level!! afterwards we went out to eat and such things.

Yeah, so its been pretty busy. but i still have time to do my important marissa things such as crafty things, writing, and reading (i have this new book i bought whihc is realllllllly good, its called 'mannen som elsket yngve' or translated means the man who loved yngve.)

Party at afs camp. wheeeee (maren and i)

oops

i always forget to update. well, not much to say now... cant really type, i have to concentration... im sick with some kind of stomach bug. mmmm tasty. and i have to get better before tomorrow, because i am going away with afs for the whole weekend. eeeeeeeeek!

working next week, etc.

so, im going to be working next week at my sisters school. that should be kinda fun... but i dont think ill be seeing tristan every day though, wahhhhhh... anyways, tristans sick today. my poor baby. =(. i might go visit him later though, but im also going to a tv show tonight so ill see if i can stop by. tomorrow though Im definately seeing him. no question about that...

haha. that was tristans face when he saw my hair. haha. (shock??)

updatering

so. i havent written in a while and dont have much time now... so ill update soon. but the only news i really have is...





I DYED MY HAIR PURPLE!!!

during the dying

the result!!! with a nice face walking in the cold...

Jul, Nyttårs, etc.

Christmas was spent up north in Norway in a place called Sulis. You probably wouldnt find it if you looked on a map, because not even 1000 people live there. But ill tell you, it was beautiful. It was a little town on the side of a mountain, at least a half hour away from any civilization. They had one store, a grocery store. The christmas was really nice. We did traditional norwegian things, which arent so different from american things. We went to chruch on new years eve (the only time ill ever go this year), then went home and ate ribs and polse, then we sang christmas songs around the christmas tree, and then we opened gifts, which took hoursssssss. the favoritie gift that i recieved was a painting of a troll that my grandpa here made for me. beautiful norwegian things. I tried skiing for the first time.... which was quite fun. But lets just say, i need to practice a lot more before i even come close to norwegian standards... then we spent most of the time just with family and such. Mamma, Pappa, and Ingrid drove back home and Karo and I took a train from northern norway home... it was pretty fun actually, but it got kinda long (17 hours on trains). When we came home we had a little christmas eve, just with us here, cause we couldnt take all of the gifts with, of course. When sleep finally came, we were all verryyy glad. The day after was new years eve already, and I spent the day with Tristan. Then later on we went to a very 'german' party, where the majority of the guests were from germany. therefore, the language of choice of the evening was one that i dont understand everything in... but i understand suprisingly much for not ever trying to learn it. New years eve actually felt a lot like the 4th of july because at midnight, all of the norwegians light off rockets and have sparklers. And we just watched a lot of the fireworks from across the lake (i was at my friends house which is on lake Mjøsa, the largest lake in norway). So now its the new year, and i know its gonna be great. because Im here in norway with a great boyfriend, family, and friends. and when i go back to the us, tristan will hopefully come with and ill soon be 18 after i return. and then..... SOON BACK TO NORWAY!! (if all goes as planned, for college!!!) Maybe germany though, for college.... i dont know, i dont want to decide my whole life now... thats so stupid, i want to be an artist, and artists can follow rules and deadlines... we just go whenever something strikes us. speaking of which, i really have the desire to play viola right now. So ill set in some pics and then play away.

Tristan and I at new years party.

Trying to show Tristan what 'spooning' was, but tim hadda jump on top...